31 March 2019.
Sometimes life appear in exciting spirits and sometimes its came in the opposite. I broke up with him last few months but i still texted him and in touch with him. Yes i miss him, but i don't know why i miss him. Yeah its not like we knowing each other for long time, but yeah i missed him. He was there when i need someone to be there when im in situation where i need handle my emotion, he was there when im tired, he was there treating with care and love eventhough i annoyed him too much. He there when i need support emotionally mentally financially. But our relationship doesn't last long. I asked him for a break up. Yea might be we still in contact. But its not the same relationship anymore. Its might be my fault asking him for breakup but i dont want to cage someone else life with my traumatized life and unstable emotional. When we were in process knowing each other, he share his thought about marrying me. About build life togather. Having child and enjoy life togather. Yes im a woman with traumatize issue so i dont want that happen to another people. Thats one of the reasons why i asked for breakup. He is the first person i went out for a date. He is a good guy. I hope he will find someone that happily to fit in his life and his dreams.
Im still in process to be better. InsyaaAllah pray for me. InsyaaAllah i will be a better muslimah and a better person for everyone in my life.
Faith. Love. Hope.
Amirah
